Day 2 of being a stay a home (almost) momma.
Yesterday was just odd. I woke up from a very detailed dream about work and realized I didn't have to do anything about it because I'm not working! Instead I drove D to work and then came home for a nap! I figure I should capitalize on some extra sleep time while I can because night time is pretty awful right now (heartburn, ugh).
I went back downtown for lunch and met up with D and her mom. We had a food court lunch as our Christmas get together. Not exactly what either of us had hoped for but it was good to at least catch up before the holidays.
For today, I'm planning on making chili to freeze for after the baby comes. I'm going to try to make a big crock-pot meal daily this week so we have some food stored away. After or perhaps before that I'll nap. Maybe both.
Oh and I need to wrap D's Christmas presents. I hope I have time!!!
JDZ: Two Moms, One Toddler
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Sunday, December 20, 2009
December 20th - Bad Blogger Busted
First, Congrats to Jen and Tiff and Heather and Laurie!!! Who's next?
Not me yet.... However I had contractions at the supermarket yesterday while finishing up shopping for Christmas dinner!
My excuse is that I've been tired and stressed out. Leaving work on my last day was harder than I'd imagined (I like work so I'm going to miss it) and then we had my parents over for Christmas dinner the very next day. That means that today is the first day in about a week that I haven't felt pressure to get a bunch of stuff done or make things perfect. DEEP BREATH. I feel so much better!!! Now if only I could SLEEP at night!! Maybe I will be able to tonight knowing that when Monday morning comes the only thing left on my check list is to have Sadie!
As for Christmas dinner, it went really well. I was so nervous because we'd never hosted my family and then my dad asked for a turkey! We pulled it off!! Dinner was excellent. Much to my brother's delight we also opened presents (before the 25th). My dad gave me a Garmin GPS. I was so surprised because I hadn't asked for one but it was what I had wanted (I was going to hold off until next year to buy one). We cut back a lot on the presents we gave this year but I think everyone was happy. My dad is the hardest person to buy for... EVER.... yet I'm pretty sure I hit a home run this year. I bought him a couple of shirts that he told me to buy (that was easy) but I also bought him 4 Colosal Black Tiger Shrimp fresh from the market that morning. They were freakin' expensive at $27/lb and came to $37 for only 4!!! I knew it was a risk but the look on his face was worth it. He was so excited and wanted to BBQ them last night!! SCORE!! My brother also really loved the gifts we gave him. I can tell he's growing up because he was most excited by a hoodie and a couple of t-shirts we bought him (skateboarding stuff). I'm actually glad we're out of the toy stores for him now. Overall it was a very good night! I'm going to miss not going home for Christmas this year but the upside is that we'll be able to relax at home for the first time and I'll also get to see the Disney Christmas parade!!
Oh and maybe I'll be giving birth too!!! Any time now!
Not me yet.... However I had contractions at the supermarket yesterday while finishing up shopping for Christmas dinner!
My excuse is that I've been tired and stressed out. Leaving work on my last day was harder than I'd imagined (I like work so I'm going to miss it) and then we had my parents over for Christmas dinner the very next day. That means that today is the first day in about a week that I haven't felt pressure to get a bunch of stuff done or make things perfect. DEEP BREATH. I feel so much better!!! Now if only I could SLEEP at night!! Maybe I will be able to tonight knowing that when Monday morning comes the only thing left on my check list is to have Sadie!
As for Christmas dinner, it went really well. I was so nervous because we'd never hosted my family and then my dad asked for a turkey! We pulled it off!! Dinner was excellent. Much to my brother's delight we also opened presents (before the 25th). My dad gave me a Garmin GPS. I was so surprised because I hadn't asked for one but it was what I had wanted (I was going to hold off until next year to buy one). We cut back a lot on the presents we gave this year but I think everyone was happy. My dad is the hardest person to buy for... EVER.... yet I'm pretty sure I hit a home run this year. I bought him a couple of shirts that he told me to buy (that was easy) but I also bought him 4 Colosal Black Tiger Shrimp fresh from the market that morning. They were freakin' expensive at $27/lb and came to $37 for only 4!!! I knew it was a risk but the look on his face was worth it. He was so excited and wanted to BBQ them last night!! SCORE!! My brother also really loved the gifts we gave him. I can tell he's growing up because he was most excited by a hoodie and a couple of t-shirts we bought him (skateboarding stuff). I'm actually glad we're out of the toy stores for him now. Overall it was a very good night! I'm going to miss not going home for Christmas this year but the upside is that we'll be able to relax at home for the first time and I'll also get to see the Disney Christmas parade!!
Oh and maybe I'll be giving birth too!!! Any time now!
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
December 16th
Exciting news happening today – but not here – check out Jen and Tiff’s blog!! I’m so excited for them and I can't wait to find out more!!
Over here..I had my last prenatal appointment with my high risk specialist today.
He has been so awesome throughout my entire pregnancy. I have one last appointment 3 weeks post partum and then I’ll be released as just a regular gal with High Blood pressure. As for the check-up, my BP was 142/78. He didn’t seem concerned at all about that reading or the previous two where my OB and his replacement were concerned. I asked about my induction and he pretty much confirmed what I had hoped not to hear (at least he is honest). He said that my BP is high but normal and is nothing to be alarmed about and that my OB wants to make sure I don’t end up in the hospital on New Years Eve with pre-e. Sounds like my doula may have been bang on saying they’d want to induce me before the holidays. You’d think that the hospital would be business as usual but if for some reason they are short staffed then I guess I am happy that I will be induced at a time when we’ll get the full attention we deserve. I tried to get a different angle on it by asking if there was any need for an earlier induction and he said he wouldn’t induce before the 28th and that he wouldn’t let me go past the 30th (EDD). So it looks like that is our fate and Sadie will be born on the 28th or 29th unless something happens sooner. In other news, the box has been opened, the pieces have been removed and the instructions have been read but our crib is still in pieces. I really need to get on this tonight!!! I was going to do this today along with packing my hospital bag and finishing the taxes but instead I was still busy with work (people are trying to get the last bit of info out of me). After my appointment I went Christmas Shopping. The good news is I’m done my shopping however the bad news is that nothing else has been accomplished – once again! Yes, you did read that right. I didn’t finish the taxes – the ones due on April 30th. They’re ready to be submit and they owe us good money. If audited I’ll just have to tell them that my BFP and pregnancy really got in the way and to consider it a loan
Over here..I had my last prenatal appointment with my high risk specialist today.
He has been so awesome throughout my entire pregnancy. I have one last appointment 3 weeks post partum and then I’ll be released as just a regular gal with High Blood pressure. As for the check-up, my BP was 142/78. He didn’t seem concerned at all about that reading or the previous two where my OB and his replacement were concerned. I asked about my induction and he pretty much confirmed what I had hoped not to hear (at least he is honest). He said that my BP is high but normal and is nothing to be alarmed about and that my OB wants to make sure I don’t end up in the hospital on New Years Eve with pre-e. Sounds like my doula may have been bang on saying they’d want to induce me before the holidays. You’d think that the hospital would be business as usual but if for some reason they are short staffed then I guess I am happy that I will be induced at a time when we’ll get the full attention we deserve. I tried to get a different angle on it by asking if there was any need for an earlier induction and he said he wouldn’t induce before the 28th and that he wouldn’t let me go past the 30th (EDD). So it looks like that is our fate and Sadie will be born on the 28th or 29th unless something happens sooner. In other news, the box has been opened, the pieces have been removed and the instructions have been read but our crib is still in pieces. I really need to get on this tonight!!! I was going to do this today along with packing my hospital bag and finishing the taxes but instead I was still busy with work (people are trying to get the last bit of info out of me). After my appointment I went Christmas Shopping. The good news is I’m done my shopping however the bad news is that nothing else has been accomplished – once again! Yes, you did read that right. I didn’t finish the taxes – the ones due on April 30th. They’re ready to be submit and they owe us good money. If audited I’ll just have to tell them that my BFP and pregnancy really got in the way and to consider it a loan
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
December 15th
Thank you for all of the words of encouragement regarding yesterday’s news. Bah humbug I’m just annoyed I’m not going to get to be surprised into labour. I know I'm not alone and that MANY of us have tossed our birth plans out the window. Why did I think planning was even an option? How did TTC teach me so little? I'm holding onto hope that there is still a chance for going natural. I’m not sure if Sadie has dropped or not but the kicks seem to be coming from lower down (around my belly button) and I’m feeling very different the last couple of days. Here’s hoping she’s early! In the meantime I’m going to book acupuncture to see if I can help get her ready. That said I have a feeling that at my next appointment on December 23rd I’ll be sent for induction. I’ll be 39 weeks exactly, it’s an 8:30 am appointment and if my BP is high I can see it happening. Therefore the goal will be readiness by the 23rd. I’ll drive that day and park in a 24 hour lot and I’ll bring my bag. Better safe than sorry!
On the home front, we’re still very much working on readiness! I put our swing together on the weekend (easy) and finally opened the Stokke box last night (not easy). The directions were vague and wordless but fortunately the online PDF version was much better. The “users guide” that came in the box was oddly laid out and made no sense. I'm going to make an attempt at it tonight!
Next up is my mom – please stop reading here if you are as sick of her as I am!!
After my 8th attempt at reaching her yesterday I left a message wishing her a happy birthday and asked for her to call back “if she had the time”. She called. She was still in her depressive mood. She spoke quietly with no inflections in her voice and I could hear the clanking of ice cubes in her glass which signalled to me that she was drinking. I realized while talking to her that she has finally broken the last thread that held us together. I don’t want her around me. I don’t even want to talk to her yet I have to try for the sake of Sadie. At the end of the phone call I asked, as enthusiastically as I could, if she’d dealt with her issues about the baby. Her response was: Well can I come and visit in January? What does that mean? Let me see the baby in January or I never want to meet her? Right! Through gritted teeth I said she could come after the 18th (D is off for 3 weeks starting the 28th of December).
As soon as I got off the phone I wanted to scream. I don’t want her coming. I don’t want to be treated like that and my daughter threatened (that she’ll never meet her grandmother) if I don’t do something the way she wants. She *is* being manipulative. What a bitch! I've been so stupid. The good news is that as soon as I said it was ok for her to visit the excuses started to pour out. I have a doctor’s appointment on the 21st, I’ll need to arrange someone to take care of the animals, and the weather might be a problem, where am I going to park the car…. So in other words I gave her what she wanted and she’s still not going to come but at least she got her way.
One of the most poignant things she said in our previous phone call was when she asked if I was happy. When I said “yes” her response was: “Well then, you don’t need me”.
You’re right mom. I don’t need YOU but perhaps YOU need ME. This is all about her and nothing about me. It's all about how SHE feels and what will make HER feel of value.
Well, I have two not so nice words for her...... but I won't because I'm better than that!
On the home front, we’re still very much working on readiness! I put our swing together on the weekend (easy) and finally opened the Stokke box last night (not easy). The directions were vague and wordless but fortunately the online PDF version was much better. The “users guide” that came in the box was oddly laid out and made no sense. I'm going to make an attempt at it tonight!
Next up is my mom – please stop reading here if you are as sick of her as I am!!
After my 8th attempt at reaching her yesterday I left a message wishing her a happy birthday and asked for her to call back “if she had the time”. She called. She was still in her depressive mood. She spoke quietly with no inflections in her voice and I could hear the clanking of ice cubes in her glass which signalled to me that she was drinking. I realized while talking to her that she has finally broken the last thread that held us together. I don’t want her around me. I don’t even want to talk to her yet I have to try for the sake of Sadie. At the end of the phone call I asked, as enthusiastically as I could, if she’d dealt with her issues about the baby. Her response was: Well can I come and visit in January? What does that mean? Let me see the baby in January or I never want to meet her? Right! Through gritted teeth I said she could come after the 18th (D is off for 3 weeks starting the 28th of December).
As soon as I got off the phone I wanted to scream. I don’t want her coming. I don’t want to be treated like that and my daughter threatened (that she’ll never meet her grandmother) if I don’t do something the way she wants. She *is* being manipulative. What a bitch! I've been so stupid. The good news is that as soon as I said it was ok for her to visit the excuses started to pour out. I have a doctor’s appointment on the 21st, I’ll need to arrange someone to take care of the animals, and the weather might be a problem, where am I going to park the car…. So in other words I gave her what she wanted and she’s still not going to come but at least she got her way.
One of the most poignant things she said in our previous phone call was when she asked if I was happy. When I said “yes” her response was: “Well then, you don’t need me”.
You’re right mom. I don’t need YOU but perhaps YOU need ME. This is all about her and nothing about me. It's all about how SHE feels and what will make HER feel of value.
Well, I have two not so nice words for her...... but I won't because I'm better than that!
Monday, December 14, 2009
December 14th
I missed blogging yesterday. Oops! I was too tired and my priority was watching the season finale of Dexter. It was worth it. In my opinion this was the best season of Dexter since season 1 when they were still following the book!! So good!!
Anyway...
I had my 38 week appointment today and much to my surprise I have been booked for an induction. I'm not happy about this at all. Everything I'd been planning up until now has been to avoid intervention. I wanted things to happen on their own time. I had even thought that my BP was under control!!
My doctor basically said that due to my chronic hypertension they wouldn't want me to go past my EDD. Honestly, I wish he'd mentioned this SEVERAL weeks ago. It's not like I've acquired this condition recently. My BP was out of whack again today with an extremely high Diastolic pressure so it really was hard to argue their reasoning... HOWEVER... it was only yesterday that our doula had commented to be careful because she'd noticed OB's like to schedule inductions over the holidays. That bit of advice did make me very skeptical of their motives.
I turned down their first date of December 23rd and I bought myself another week to hopefully go into labour on my own. That said, our date is December 28th. We'll be having an '09 baby after all!
We've decided we're NOT telling people IRL that I will be induced. A small part of me hopes that I still go naturally so I feel there is no need to set expectations for that date. I also do not want to have an audience. The absolute LAST thing I want is my MIL showing up on December 27th with an overnight bag. No. Thank. You.
The plan will be to find out my time to go in that morning, go in for the induction and then wait for my next instructions. I may still be going home to labour so I do not want family getting in the way (I strongly feel this should be private between D & I). We'll call when it's either time to go to the hosptial or if I'm held at the hosptital, when I'm in active labour.
I hope I'm not being selfish holding back this information but I don't understand why anyone would want to sit in a hospital waiting room for hours on end when they're not a support person. I feel like I'll be doing them a favour by decreasing their wait time! Don't you think? Also, isn't it exciting to find out someone is in labour? I feel like the birth will be less exciting if people know in advance!!
In other news, today is my mothers birthday. I've tried calling about 5 times already at various points throughout the day (starting in the early morning). I'm not sure where she is or if she has her phone off the hook but I'll try until I reach her. If not, you can't say I didn't try! As for what I'm going to say to her other than "happy birthday", I'm not sure about that yet. Wish me luck! I hope she's in a good mood!!
Anyway...
I had my 38 week appointment today and much to my surprise I have been booked for an induction. I'm not happy about this at all. Everything I'd been planning up until now has been to avoid intervention. I wanted things to happen on their own time. I had even thought that my BP was under control!!
My doctor basically said that due to my chronic hypertension they wouldn't want me to go past my EDD. Honestly, I wish he'd mentioned this SEVERAL weeks ago. It's not like I've acquired this condition recently. My BP was out of whack again today with an extremely high Diastolic pressure so it really was hard to argue their reasoning... HOWEVER... it was only yesterday that our doula had commented to be careful because she'd noticed OB's like to schedule inductions over the holidays. That bit of advice did make me very skeptical of their motives.
I turned down their first date of December 23rd and I bought myself another week to hopefully go into labour on my own. That said, our date is December 28th. We'll be having an '09 baby after all!
We've decided we're NOT telling people IRL that I will be induced. A small part of me hopes that I still go naturally so I feel there is no need to set expectations for that date. I also do not want to have an audience. The absolute LAST thing I want is my MIL showing up on December 27th with an overnight bag. No. Thank. You.
The plan will be to find out my time to go in that morning, go in for the induction and then wait for my next instructions. I may still be going home to labour so I do not want family getting in the way (I strongly feel this should be private between D & I). We'll call when it's either time to go to the hosptial or if I'm held at the hosptital, when I'm in active labour.
I hope I'm not being selfish holding back this information but I don't understand why anyone would want to sit in a hospital waiting room for hours on end when they're not a support person. I feel like I'll be doing them a favour by decreasing their wait time! Don't you think? Also, isn't it exciting to find out someone is in labour? I feel like the birth will be less exciting if people know in advance!!
In other news, today is my mothers birthday. I've tried calling about 5 times already at various points throughout the day (starting in the early morning). I'm not sure where she is or if she has her phone off the hook but I'll try until I reach her. If not, you can't say I didn't try! As for what I'm going to say to her other than "happy birthday", I'm not sure about that yet. Wish me luck! I hope she's in a good mood!!
Saturday, December 12, 2009
December 12th
The Car seat has been installed, Christmas shopping has been completed, oil change for the car (which was due for the 18th) has been taken care of and we've purchased our groceries for our Christmas dinner with my parents/brother next weekend. It's been a busy day. We also went to see The Princess and the Frog. It was cute!
Based on the advice of one my co-workers I also went out to buy a nursing bra and a couple pairs of nursing pj's. Both were on sale which was nice because I wouldn't want to cough up the extra money for them otherwise. It was weird being in a maternity shop and NOT buying maternity clothes!!
Tomorrow will be our last prenatal appointment with our Doula. Technically this should have been booked before the first week of December but I was extremely lazy getting around to it. I think Sadie is going to sneak up on us because I'm being rather laissez-faire when it comes to getting prepared. Our crib is STILL in its box and I fear it may remain that way forever!!! I'm honestly more concerned about wrapping up things at work than I am with the fact that I could go into labour at any time now!!!
Based on the advice of one my co-workers I also went out to buy a nursing bra and a couple pairs of nursing pj's. Both were on sale which was nice because I wouldn't want to cough up the extra money for them otherwise. It was weird being in a maternity shop and NOT buying maternity clothes!!
Tomorrow will be our last prenatal appointment with our Doula. Technically this should have been booked before the first week of December but I was extremely lazy getting around to it. I think Sadie is going to sneak up on us because I'm being rather laissez-faire when it comes to getting prepared. Our crib is STILL in its box and I fear it may remain that way forever!!! I'm honestly more concerned about wrapping up things at work than I am with the fact that I could go into labour at any time now!!!
Friday, December 11, 2009
December 11th
Not much to say today. Blogging daily is hard when there's nothing much to say!! D and I went out for a date night tonight. Dinner without a movie since I was too tired. I would like to see The Princess & the Frog at some point but we'll have to see if that happens! Instead we went to Craft Burger which has fantastic burgers (veggie for me). They also have Birch Beer which is a real treat because it isn't common in Toronto at all. After dinner we wandered around the shops in the area. I bought my brother 2 "39 clues" books. I was so excited when my step-mom had said he wanted books only to find out they include playing cards. Darn it. I guess if gets him reading I can put up with the gimmick! I hope Sadie is a reader.
That's all for today!
That's all for today!
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