BFP!!!

I bought a P-Stick yesterday morning on our way to the water park and just woke up about a half an hour ago with about 2.5 hours of saved up goodness.... peed in a cup... dipped the stick in the cup.... (I'm really not one to use the stream) and guess what....??? OMG a second line. DW didn't believe me because it's super faint but I have spent enough time looking at BFN to know this isn't one. So it looks like as of 11 DPO we have a faint BFP!

Am I pregnant?

I do not have any p-sticks in stock so no news as of yet. I'm having some awful panic attacks right now about being pregnant - something I haven't experienced my previous 5 attempts even the time I read false positives out of the garbage can. I called my mom yesterday and she said it was probably because after all of the trying and disappointment over the past year I'd forgotten what the end result was.

OMG

In the past I may have thought I had symptoms in the past but now I feel like I actually do... and I'm freaking out! This morning I woke up and was so sick. I threw up (mostly dry heaving) on and off over an hour. I also feel like AF is hear right now.... I hope that throwing up is NOT a symptom because I'm not up for a lot of morning sickness but.... could it be? I think I may actually be pregnant this time!

What?

I can't believe this but my clinic actually called and asked me to come in for b/w. I think it's because I bitched at my RE's receptionist while my RE was on vacation and told her about my fallout with the nurse regarding PCOS. So I guess I'm getting special b/w to test for that? I want to get a dx before moving to a known donor so this will help!

3 DPO

I'm very happy to be 3 DPO. My IUI on Saturday sucked. The doctor was one I had never seen before and he did not make a great impression on me. After being late he did my IUI (it hurt a lot) and mumbled "hope it works" as he left. He didn't give me my results and the nurse wouldn't either -she said they'd call with them but of course they didn't. I was pretty upset and felt that this cycle was a waste. I pretty much went from the clinic directly into a swimming pool. I'm not sure if swimming is the best thing to do after an IUI but I had my nephew and it was sooo hot out! Sunday made up for the suckiness of Saturday. The doctor that day was awesome. I didn't think I'd ever say that! He was so friendly and the procedure didn't hurt at all. The best part was that he looked at my sample under the microscope - for the first time I actually saw my swimmers!! It was amazing. Although I'm still in shock over how small sperm is - that may sound stupid but it's really really small. I also found out that my follicle was 22 mm before ovulation and I had ovulated overnight. which means this cycle wasn't a bust.... I have everything crossed that this one has worked!!!

New Clinic

I saw my Dr. on Thursday and she's referred me to a new clinic (wait 4-6 weeks) and suggested I write a letter to the clinic explaining why I am unhappy. She said she is working with the fert clinics to help make them more "gay friendly" and my input would help a lot. I may need some advice so I don't get too emotional but I need several days before I can even think about it.

As for my current cycle from hell... I've been called in for my IUI for Saturday and Sunday. I hope this is a viable cycle and I'm not wasting more money.. needless to say I'm going to do it. The funny thing is that we have my 2.5 year old nephew for the weekend. He's going to have a fun time going to the fertility clinic 2x a day. It's likely going to rain so it's not like there is going to be anything else to do!

Now I'm angry!

I was in this morning for my u/s and b/w and I saw on my chart "1.3 cm cyst" from my Monday u/s. Why wouldn't they tell me I had a cyst when they gave me my results? I went in to talk to the cycle monitoring nurse. I asked her why the u/s techs kept asking me if I had PCOS or if I was on metaformin and she said it was because I have numerous follicles which is an indication. She said "PCOS as you're calling it".... with attitude. She said I need to "get used to them asking those questions" and if I have any concerns about PCOS I should talk to my Doctor, also with attitude. I flat out asked how I was supposed to know if there was something wrong to even ASK the questions if I'm not being told in my results that there is something I should be concerned about. Should I be hearing this from the u/s technicians? She actually said... "well if that's what they're saying you should speak to your dr.".... WTH!!!!!! So the 80+ transvaginal u/s and blood draws taken over the past 12 months have not given my RE the information she needs to mention there may be a problem???? I guess I have to go an ask her on a hunch or worse yet based on information that I'm not supposed to be relying on. There is a huge sign in the room that says "u/s technicians are legally not permitted to give results". I wonder if there is a small print that says they will give a diagnosis when your RE is ignoring you?
I've had problems for ages with this clinic and I keep going back because it's just easier than being wait listed for a new one. Plus I know another couple on here used them and had such a good experience. I keep wondering what is wrong, why am I not being treated the same way? To make matters even worse is the fact that we're starting to question if there is something wrong just as we're heading in to using a KD. Knowing that there could be a problem and that they are not telling me makes me feel like they do not care at all. If they did they wouldn't let me spend thousands of dollars... unless all I am to them is another patient to make them money.
I was able to book a Doctor's appointment with my family doctor tomorrow and I'm asking to switch clinics!!