Tears!

Sadie had a complete freak out at the library today. I had no idea she was a old enough to be frightened by the sight of something. Sounds, yes, but a scary object?
Here she is sitting on the "bear" rug.


This is her noticing the REAL bear rugs under the table.




This was a couple of seconds before she started screaming/crying. I picked her up and she calmed down when we left the room.
Perhaps a milestone? Or maybe just coincidence?
Despite the scary bear rugs this library was very cool. We'll be going back for storytime during the week.



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Foto Friday

Shopping!


Falling asleep out on the deck.


Going for a walk with Bear.




Serious baby!

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The Donor...

was Klingon!!!!!





Meet Sadie's "snorting face". Sadie loves to snort ALL THE TIME!! (;

Toothies

We now have 6!
The last few nights have been soooo much fun. The 4 top have cut through so I'm sure things are going to get better, not worse. Poor boo!


She thought this was very funny -- this photo looks like torture but it wasn't!
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Paranoid?

So, we're currently without wireless Internet but we're adding it again. There was just a story on the news about how it could make kids sick. I was already leaning on the I-don't-really-want-it side before I saw this.
How many out there have home WiFi? Anyone have concerns?
When we lived in the condo we had several WiFi signals coming into our unit. In the house there is only one that gets picked up occasionally. Therefore, it seems that we've already drastically decreased Sadie's exposure. But what can you really do? WiFi is everywhere. Even our home alarm uses wireless technology.
BTW, this is just a glimpse into my constant worryfest!!


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Island Vacation Part 2

Excellent thoughts about #2 from my previous entry. I'm so confused about it all. I would LOVE to have our kids 2 years apart but being pregnant again so soon seems too soon!! If D would do it than I'd jump at it! No fuss! But seriously, I can still remember the heartburn and the fatigue! I miss my fat belly being fat with a purpose but that's about it at this point! Why does life go so fast? I really wish things would stop feeling like a race to the finish line (and then repeat). Ugh. There is also the fact that I have been an anxious mess with Sadie and the sadness. I'm looking past that because it isn't logical. I'm being set up with a PPD clinic for when I get back in town. Hopefully I'll figure out what's going on with me because until then I can only guess at what's going on. Hopefully this doesn't happen for #2 but it's not going to stop me regardless - at least I'll be prepared.
As for our vacation (since I derailed the previous entry);
A real treat being at Granny's has been meeting and playing with her Dog (Bear) and her cat (Smokey). Sadie LOVES them both. We have been practising petting the kitty without pulling his tail and we're getting good at it! I'm happy to see that Sadie is not fearful of animals. Bear is a HUGE dog with a big deep bark and we've only had tears once!
We go for daily walks to the marina to see the boats and we've been paddling in the water. Tomorrow we are going to go to the beach for some swimming!
Sadie has also really started taking to her food while here. I have her on solids twice a day now and she's just started eating with interest. I'm looking forward to getting home and starting her on some new foods and making a consistant schedule. We've pretty much been rotating pears, bananas, blueberries, carrots, and sweet potatos with cereal (rice). It's so nice that (I think) she's finally caught on (swallowing AND eating a fair portion). I feel SO behind with this since I know so many of the other December babies are eating such great menus of food and I'm sure on a much greater scale. Clearly my baby is a picky eater just like her Momma!
My mom pretty much forced me to get a play pen for Sadie today. We have one at home but it didn't fit in the car. She wants Sadie trained to sleep in her crib for naps ASAP and I see her point but I am holding strong on night co-sleeping. The problem is that there have been a couple of incidents. She fell out of bed at home and slid off the mattress (on the floor) that we're sleeping on here. So yeah, my mom thinks it's time to get her in a crib "for her own safety" and I don't think I'll hear the end of it. Granny may have been losing it but give her a purpose and then watch out!!!!



Sadie LOVES to eat books!

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Island Vacation

Sadie and I made it up to granny's house last Friday. The 7 hour drive took about 8 hours - not bad! My road trip confidence has increases significantly.
Things have been rocky since we arrived. I'm still stressed out and my mother hasn't reacted the way I'd hoped. Like from everyone else in my life I keep hearing that I need to chill out because "Sadie will sense it" or worse end up like me! In addition we disagree on co-sleeping and I'm not sure how many more ways she can bring it up.
I'm starting to wonder if the root of my issues the building panic over how fast this year is going? I know I'll receive little sympathy considering how lucky I am to have a year but we all have an amount of time and that time ends. My mom took Sadie for a walk today and I ended up chasing her down the street after they left. I'm clearly a long way from where I need to be.
All of the house buying and moving had been setting us up for Sadie's care. I know anyone reading this blog for any amount of time will wonder WTF when they learn this but it is my mother who is moving in with us. Yes, my mom. They one that has causes so much grief in my life.
The thing is that I've learned a lot when I started to listen to her. We really had a great breakthrough after her meltdown last November. She pretty much feels it's her purpose in life to care for Sadie. She said she was so hurt when we said we didn't need her and couldn't imagine why we'd chose daycare instead.
I have reservations about this. Many. But at the same time my mother is really good with Sadie and Sadie loves her. It will be nice leaving her at home and not needing external care. It will be really nice.
In other thoughts, I've been obsessively thinking about #2 lately. My cousin (who I'm not in competition with) told me she's starting to TTC #2 in February. Holy $&@# that seems soon! We had planned on either next fall or perhaps the following spring. I'm starting to think about earlier and earlier but really have no idea! I'm also worried that a driving factor in this obsession is the idea thy I'll have more time with Sadie when a new baby arrives. Wrong attitude, right? What are others thinking about when it comes to #2, 3 etc. How soon are you going to start? Is 2 years apart your ideal?



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