I told my manager today and it went really well. He is such a sweet guy who really loves his kids and will always put them first. That is a good thing when you are new to a job and are saying you have 6 months before you're off for a year. I also had to come out to him because I'd said "we'd been trying for a while" and he said he didn't know I was even with anyone. At that point I had to say I was married and I told him to a woman because I never want to hear the word "husband"!
I think that this pregnancy will out me to everyone and I don't care because I have no issue with people knowing. My issue is that I do not like telling people because I think it is irrelevant. Also, I do not hide anything at all about my life and it's not my fault people ASSume things that are incorrect. The fact is people may not be able to comprehend my pregnancy without more information so I've enlisted a couple of friend/co-workers to help move accurate rumors. I have NO problem with people talking accurately about me behind my back. I also do not have a problem with telling anyone if they ask!! Hopefully people will ask and not gossip!
JDZ: Two Moms, One Toddler
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Update
Thank you for your kind words.
I had a good appointment this afternoon and I'm relaxing with a nice big glass of watered down Pedialyte (which is repulsive) in an effort to re-hydrate. I was also given a prescription for Diclectin which I had from the clinic as well but never filled. My doc thinks my illness is not pregnancy related but a virus. The Diclectin should help with my vomiting and she said I'm FINE. I just need to take care of myself so I feel better.
There was also NO problem switching out my referral to avoid the scary OB. When I'm at my u/s next week I'm going to wander into the maternity ward at the hospital we'll use. I hope it doesn't scare me away because I'm not sure what we'd do then!
This all seems too real too soon and I'm getting nervous. I have 6 months to worry about hating the hospital!!
I think the reality of being pregnant has hit. After we're safely past the 3 month mark we're going to have to get on some wait lists for daycare. Isn't that NUTS? There is no relaxing when it comes to making babies!!!
I had a good appointment this afternoon and I'm relaxing with a nice big glass of watered down Pedialyte (which is repulsive) in an effort to re-hydrate. I was also given a prescription for Diclectin which I had from the clinic as well but never filled. My doc thinks my illness is not pregnancy related but a virus. The Diclectin should help with my vomiting and she said I'm FINE. I just need to take care of myself so I feel better.
There was also NO problem switching out my referral to avoid the scary OB. When I'm at my u/s next week I'm going to wander into the maternity ward at the hospital we'll use. I hope it doesn't scare me away because I'm not sure what we'd do then!
This all seems too real too soon and I'm getting nervous. I have 6 months to worry about hating the hospital!!
I think the reality of being pregnant has hit. After we're safely past the 3 month mark we're going to have to get on some wait lists for daycare. Isn't that NUTS? There is no relaxing when it comes to making babies!!!
Not Feeling Well
Last night was the worst experience I've had so far this pregnancy. I've had a headache since Sunday night but yesterday it became unbearable. Thankfully I had a Dr.'s appointment but there isn't much you can do for a headache, right? I was told that I could take a normal dose of 2 extra strength Tylenol. Great.
Walking home from the appointment I was gagging and throwing up (on the street). By the time I got home I felt terrible. I took a single extra strength Tylenol (not comfortable with 2) and felt better after eating some food. I went to bed as soon as I could but woke up crying for my Mom at 11:00pm. I even yelled downstairs for "Mom" not "D".
All hell broke loose at that point. It was gross so I won't even describe it but I was SICK SICK SICK!!
I'm home today and alone until about 10:00pm since D has night school. I wish so much that I had someone with me because I'm feeling very sad and lonely. Even someone to talk to would be good enough but I've called my Mom and I can't get in contact with her. It's times like these that I do not like being alone in the city. It's hard not having family near you when you need them.
In other news, I found out last night that I am scheduled for my first OB appointment on June 24th. I had no idea I had this appointment so I guess its a good thing I went in for my check-up yesterday! I was happy to hear I did not have to wait until 20 weeks to meet with them but my happiness ended soon after I got home and read the reviews on Rate MDs. SCATHING best describes them:
I could go on. There were 27 reviews and most were along this line. Others mentioned 2 hour waits for appointments on top of rude and that the receptionist will not return your calls no matter how many times you leave messages. Do you think I want her as my Doctor?????? HELL NO.
In all honesty THIS is probably what made me so sick last night. Sure I had a headache but this is STRESS that I do not need!! I PROMPTLY called my GP and told her receptionist that there was NO WAY I was accepting the referral!!! After going through the negative experience I had with clinic #1 I now know when to draw the line. Sorry but I'm not going to give her a chance. So far RateMDs has been accurate for every doctor I've ever seen (good and bad).
I've decided to go with the Dr and Hospital my GP recommended even though I had said that (Hospital) was the last place on earth I'd want to give birth. THAT opinion changed quickly!!!! The fact is that Clinic #1 was my fault. My GP recommended Clinic #2 and I said no, I wanted Clinic #1. I've decided that she was 110% right last time so I should just go with her opinion this time. YES I'll be giving birth in the ghetto but maybe I need a wake-up call and should get off my high horse! I'm sure everything will be fine there.
I have an appointment with my GP again this afternoon. She's probably going to roll her eyes when she sees me but I can't deal with this. I'm going to settle all of the OB drama TODAY and move on. I had hoped to do it over the phone but I want to make sure my intentions are clear. I'm not going to that appointment on June 24th.
Walking home from the appointment I was gagging and throwing up (on the street). By the time I got home I felt terrible. I took a single extra strength Tylenol (not comfortable with 2) and felt better after eating some food. I went to bed as soon as I could but woke up crying for my Mom at 11:00pm. I even yelled downstairs for "Mom" not "D".
All hell broke loose at that point. It was gross so I won't even describe it but I was SICK SICK SICK!!
I'm home today and alone until about 10:00pm since D has night school. I wish so much that I had someone with me because I'm feeling very sad and lonely. Even someone to talk to would be good enough but I've called my Mom and I can't get in contact with her. It's times like these that I do not like being alone in the city. It's hard not having family near you when you need them.
In other news, I found out last night that I am scheduled for my first OB appointment on June 24th. I had no idea I had this appointment so I guess its a good thing I went in for my check-up yesterday! I was happy to hear I did not have to wait until 20 weeks to meet with them but my happiness ended soon after I got home and read the reviews on Rate MDs. SCATHING best describes them:
Condescending when curtly answering questions. Seems knowledgeable although have had limited exposure. Not friendly nor funny. Someone should remind her that as a public servant, we fund her salary. Perhaps a pay-for-performance/rating salary would motivate her. Saw her treat her receptionist in a poor fashion.
I have had not so positive experiences with her. I feel that her staff and herself could use a refresher course on PR skills. I feel that she has TERRIBLE bedside manner. Her secretary is CURT<>
I had the unpleasant experience of dealing with Dr. xxx when she was the on call at Mt. Sinai. don't EVER attempt an unmedicated birth with her and don't try to reject her interventions. As an OB you should never tell your patients that their baby will die unless there is a true emergency. it is NOT the way to talk them into an epidural. i have a complaint in against her and i know of two other women who have also filed complaints. she is horrid. she had me in tears, she yelled at me and she was so mad at my attempts for a natural delivery that she refused to numb me before stiching up a tear.
I could go on. There were 27 reviews and most were along this line. Others mentioned 2 hour waits for appointments on top of rude and that the receptionist will not return your calls no matter how many times you leave messages. Do you think I want her as my Doctor?????? HELL NO.
In all honesty THIS is probably what made me so sick last night. Sure I had a headache but this is STRESS that I do not need!! I PROMPTLY called my GP and told her receptionist that there was NO WAY I was accepting the referral!!! After going through the negative experience I had with clinic #1 I now know when to draw the line. Sorry but I'm not going to give her a chance. So far RateMDs has been accurate for every doctor I've ever seen (good and bad).
I've decided to go with the Dr and Hospital my GP recommended even though I had said that (Hospital) was the last place on earth I'd want to give birth. THAT opinion changed quickly!!!! The fact is that Clinic #1 was my fault. My GP recommended Clinic #2 and I said no, I wanted Clinic #1. I've decided that she was 110% right last time so I should just go with her opinion this time. YES I'll be giving birth in the ghetto but maybe I need a wake-up call and should get off my high horse! I'm sure everything will be fine there.
I have an appointment with my GP again this afternoon. She's probably going to roll her eyes when she sees me but I can't deal with this. I'm going to settle all of the OB drama TODAY and move on. I had hoped to do it over the phone but I want to make sure my intentions are clear. I'm not going to that appointment on June 24th.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Sucker!!!
Yep, that's me.
I read this article on CNN this morning and being the sucker I am I bought one of these: (from ebay with free shipping, not from this site)
I'll be trying this out "just for fun".They do claim 80-90% accuracy (at 10 weeks) although there was a disclaimer about PCOS and the test always showing "boy". I was never diagnosed so hopefully I do not fall under that category. That said, if the test reads "girl" I'll be more likely to believe it than if it reads "boy". Regardless, I must be aching to waste more money on something to pee on!!!!!
I read this article on CNN this morning and being the sucker I am I bought one of these: (from ebay with free shipping, not from this site)
I'll be trying this out "just for fun".They do claim 80-90% accuracy (at 10 weeks) although there was a disclaimer about PCOS and the test always showing "boy". I was never diagnosed so hopefully I do not fall under that category. That said, if the test reads "girl" I'll be more likely to believe it than if it reads "boy". Regardless, I must be aching to waste more money on something to pee on!!!!!
Monday, June 8, 2009
Tongue Tied
I'm having a really hard time with blogging lately. I guess I've come to understand what many TTC bloggers before me have already discovered. Moving on from a TTC blog to a Pregnancy blog is tricky.
Nothing much is happening. I'm holding my breath between milestones.
I have an appointment with my GP tomorrow. I'm not sure what these appointments are for and I hope to be with the OB soon. In the meantime we've started to shop around for a Doula. This is our compromise for choosing an OB over a midwife. I know that I will not receive the attention I'll need otherwise. I'm admitting it right now. I'm NEEDY. Since D and I will both be new to this we figured that it would be nice to have an external voice of reason. Doula's do not offer medical support but they are there for you emotionally. That's just what I need!
Nothing much is happening. I'm holding my breath between milestones.
I have an appointment with my GP tomorrow. I'm not sure what these appointments are for and I hope to be with the OB soon. In the meantime we've started to shop around for a Doula. This is our compromise for choosing an OB over a midwife. I know that I will not receive the attention I'll need otherwise. I'm admitting it right now. I'm NEEDY. Since D and I will both be new to this we figured that it would be nice to have an external voice of reason. Doula's do not offer medical support but they are there for you emotionally. That's just what I need!
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Graduation Day!
We've had our last RE visit and are moving to the care of our GP until 20 weeks and... NO MORE PROGESTERONE!! Yipeee! The appointment was quick. We did the ultrasound and then waited to see Dr. P. I'm currently at 10 weeks and the baby is measuring 10 weeks 1 day. The heartbeat was at 182 which Dr. P said was high but "strong".
Unfortunately I wasn't able to see the u/s monitor due to the way it was positioned. I was able to see D's reaction and I kept seeing her eyebrows go up in shock. I started to worry what she was seeing!!!! Apparently our babe was moving around and was wiggling its legs and waving its arms. Pretty cool! I did have some pain during the u/s which was odd (it happened last time too) but I was told there was nothing to worry about because it only happens during the u/s. I'll mention it to my GP to see what she says. Maybe I can weasel another u/s out of her!!
Overall excellent news... Here's our picture:
Btw, my Dad has offered up a name suggestion - SEAMUS (SHAY-mus) WTH!! He said I need to find a nice Irish name. We'll see dad... we'll see.
Unfortunately I wasn't able to see the u/s monitor due to the way it was positioned. I was able to see D's reaction and I kept seeing her eyebrows go up in shock. I started to worry what she was seeing!!!! Apparently our babe was moving around and was wiggling its legs and waving its arms. Pretty cool! I did have some pain during the u/s which was odd (it happened last time too) but I was told there was nothing to worry about because it only happens during the u/s. I'll mention it to my GP to see what she says. Maybe I can weasel another u/s out of her!!
Overall excellent news... Here's our picture:
Btw, my Dad has offered up a name suggestion - SEAMUS (SHAY-mus) WTH!! He said I need to find a nice Irish name. We'll see dad... we'll see.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Our Donor
Units became available today (they sent me an e-mail). I was so excited I replied back that I wanted 5 vials – we already have 1 in storage. Unfortunately they only have 1 washed unit available!! Damn it!!! I was assured that he is “still in the program” and more will become available. I’ll also stay at the top of the wait list.
I guess this is good news. I’m happy to hear our donor is still donating. I’m also happy that we now have 2 units available instead of just 1.
What does suck is that I’m already worrying about future TTC attempts when I’m still barely confident about being pregnant with #1! I realized this the other day as we were dreaming up future vacations (we’re on a vacation freeze this year as a new year’s resolution). I was thinking about summer 2 years from now and I realized with a good dose of terror that we’d likely be TTC again by then. Trust me -- I’m giving myself a good slap across the face for being so stupid. I feel blessed that we have so far been successful once and I need to RELAX and not think about anything else. The point of my ramble is that as I prepare for the future I wonder if I can even go through this again. Being pregnant does not take the pain away from what you’ve experienced. In fact, I think what I’ve experienced has taken the pleasure out of being pregnant.
Tomorrow is my 10 week scan and (FX) my graduation day from the clinic. Hopefully after this appointment I'll feel more confident and maybe even believe this is going to happen!!
I guess this is good news. I’m happy to hear our donor is still donating. I’m also happy that we now have 2 units available instead of just 1.
What does suck is that I’m already worrying about future TTC attempts when I’m still barely confident about being pregnant with #1! I realized this the other day as we were dreaming up future vacations (we’re on a vacation freeze this year as a new year’s resolution). I was thinking about summer 2 years from now and I realized with a good dose of terror that we’d likely be TTC again by then. Trust me -- I’m giving myself a good slap across the face for being so stupid. I feel blessed that we have so far been successful once and I need to RELAX and not think about anything else. The point of my ramble is that as I prepare for the future I wonder if I can even go through this again. Being pregnant does not take the pain away from what you’ve experienced. In fact, I think what I’ve experienced has taken the pleasure out of being pregnant.
Tomorrow is my 10 week scan and (FX) my graduation day from the clinic. Hopefully after this appointment I'll feel more confident and maybe even believe this is going to happen!!
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