No Control

I'm soooo tempted to start charting... I think I'd feel more in control but since I do have the opportunity to have cycle monitoring for free that is probably what I should do and not spend money on an OPK. For this cycle I'll just wait....and worry....

Aside from CM I'm also worrying about what I eat, what I lift.. I'm going crazy!

Freaking out already

Yy insem yesterday was at the 30 hour mark past my LH Surge on a fully moniterd cycle but I didn't have EWCM until TODAY. I feel like maybe I've missed the window and the swimmers are dead if I haven't O'd yet.

Since I'm not doing any monitoring at home I'm completely trusting the bloodwork and u/s at the clinic. This sucks.

First IUI

I had my first IUI today. It wasn't with my RE so I was a bit disappointed. I'm having a bit of cramping/bleeding that I didn't expect at all. I've been worried all day the swimmers are going to fall out.....!!

Here is our Donor:

Risks of using a sperm donor

I'm not sure if I'm just naive but the risk of DI children meeting and the potential for "incest" doesn't bother me even though I have a real life example of DI kids meeting (their parents knew and then told them). There isn't any reason to hide (for Lesbians) the use of a donor and that will need to be something that is always mentioned when our children are entering a new relationship. The real problem (IMHO) is when a couple decides to hide Donor Conception from their children or worse when clinics suggest they do this.

The transfer of genetic disorders is scary and something I've had to accept when starting this process. My nephew has special needs and one of the first things done was genetic testing of both parents - that is something DI children will not be able to do. Ironically even with all of this information I chose an anonymous donor after the only ID release donor that met our criteria gave me a bad feeling that I couldn't shake.

I am going to try (unsure if the clinic will let me) to get the empty vial so I can send it to CaBri for the Donor Semen Archive. Being able to do testing in the future seems worthy of the $60/year fee.

I'm Still waiting for my IUI and am feeling very impatient. I'm about a day late now and I'm getting dangerously close to missing an opportunity for a second try in October becuase I'll be away for a few days at the end of the month.

Parental Leave and Going Crazy Waiting

I've been wondering about parental leave. My DP is going to take 2-3 months and I'll take the first 9-10 months.

On a side note, I'm going absolutely BONKERS. I've called home for my messages about 20 times in the past hour. I'm so eager to get my results today that I'm actually driving myself mad. This is a bad sign - I didn't realize I was going to be THIS impatient.

I Finally got the results and my LH has gone from 5 up to 10

Mon- E 264, LH 5, P 3.4, Tues- E 316, LH 5, P 3.9 Wed - E 361, LH 5, P 3.2, Thurs E 570 LH 10 P 2.7

I hope the the jump in the LH level means I will be called in soon.

2 follicles = twins

How many follicles normally mature? I'm pretty sure on my test cycle I had only 1 follicle tracking at +1 cm and this time I have 2 that are over 1 cm (1 left, 1 right). Does this mean I could have 2 eggs this month or is this normal and one will likely fade away?

Confused

I'm feeling a bit confused this morning after going in for my u/s and blood work for 2 days. The u/s is different this time around and I'm not sure if it's because this is the "real deal" or because things are not progressing as they should. It's making me fear this cycle may be a bust.

I'm CD 12ish (technically 13 but I think I called it a day early) and I normally ovulate around 16. The tech today said that I've "reached the mark" which means my folicles are at 1 cm (1 folicle on Right, 1 folicle on Left) or above however also asked if I had a history of endometriosis and was checking to see if "two were stuck together". Both techs also asked if I was on any medication and seemed to poke around on the right a lot more than before. I took a peek on my chart and saw my u/t Left 1.9, u/t Right 1.3 - not sure if that is the lining or folicle size....

I'd love to bombared them questions! However there is a huge sign that says "technicians are not legally allowed to discuss any results" . All I get is the info they spill while doing the u/s and then a phone message with the results (that are super vague). Unfortunately I'd have to book time with the Doctor to further discuss but I work in another city so getting back to the clinic the same day isn't possible. Hopefully things will be clearer tomorrow. I honestly do not like when the techs talk during the u/s because it's their opinion before the Dr. has reviewed and they can make you worry.