Foto Friday

Another "Then and Now"

I met up with a friend and her 4 month old this week and I was shocked that I couldn't remember Sadie at 4 months! So here is a "now and then" as a reminder!

April 2010


April 2011



I'm glad she has hair now!

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Weekend in Pictures... and some rambling!

I wanted to participate in the 30 day challenge but there's no way I could keep up. Maybe I'll jump in here or there to write some of the topics but for now, I'm out. I am, however, LOVING reading the entries of those who are participating. Nothing much has really been happening around here other than sleep issues and being tired. Sadie is teething or growing or something because she's been screaming and miserable at night. It hasn't been fun but it seems to be winding down. Unfortunately I'm now unable to sleep. I think that once you're up so often for so long you end up in that pattern. This weekend was beautiful so despite wanting to sleep all day we took full advantage of the nice weather. First though, on Friday night, we went to an indoor gym. We've been to several now and seem to have finally found the one we *love*. These playgrounds are so hit and miss and many of the ones we've been to are just not nice at all. I had kept wondering why their websites all sucked and now I think it's because if you actually knew what you were getting into, you wouldn't go. This one was different. It had natural light, was not in an industrial area (so many are in warehouses) and had really nice working toys. I think its really lame to charge kids to come in and play and then have crappy toys that don't work. The below pic is of Sadie humouring me by playing on an age appropriate play structure. She prefers playing with the big kids, going head first down slides and escaping out of my reach. I have bruised knees from crawling after her but it's fun and a great workout! On Saturday afternoon we went to the Village of Port Credit which is on the lake and has shops and a nice park. Sadie had fun running around like crazy and head diving down slides. Afterward we drove out to the Air Port. I was hoping to catch some landings but we weren't there at the right time for that and only caught some planes taking off. Hanging out at the airport is seriously one of my favourite things. I love standing under the planes as they come roaring above.

Walking to the park:

Swinging!

On Sunday we went to visit Orion who belongs to one of our friends. He is a gorgeous and very large horse! Sadie had a really great time petting him, brushing him and feeding him carrots. He was very sweet and we have an invite to visit him any weekend we want since our friend is always there!

On the way home we went shopping. Sadie didn't get these sunglasses but I think I'll go back for them! She did score her very own suitcase! Finally, Sunday dinner! Sadie had corn on the cob, bbq chicken, bread, tomato and cucumber. Yummy!! We had a great weekend!

Donor Doubt

I wish I could post the whole story with all of the details but I can’t. All I can say is that the dude I thought was the donor, IRL, isn’t. I’m sad about this and I’ll get to why a bit later on. First, I started looking stuff up again after offering advice on what to do with donor info/pictures that have not been provided by the donor. It got me thinking that although I had saved a couple of pictures I hadn’t safely secured any of the written info I had found. That’s when I started searching again and things started to unravel. I will now caution anyone as silly as I am to really think about seeking unauthorized info and the consequence of being wrong.

Without getting too specific, I had 2 pieces of info that put together seemed to be the key to his identity. Everything matched for the guy I had found including his career, geographical location, age and number of siblings. The problem started when I googled his dad for the first time. Up popped a professional website with more info than I could have ever expected! I found his father’s entire resume with education and including extra-curricular activities. With this brought two pieces of conflicting info 1) I had mistaken his father for his grandfather and 2) His father’s career and education does not match what is listed our donor profile. The first piece of information may or may not be significant. The issue was that I found him through his relationship to his paternal grandfather and if I was actually connecting him to his father that is a real blow to my confidence in the match. Also, I hadn't even considered I could be looking for his Maternal relative. That relationship was what zeroed me in on one specific person instead of a large group of people. The reality is, even if that is how I found him, I was focusing on a specific group of candidates and I found someone who matched our donor perfectly... or so I thought! It’s the second bit of information that has really thrown me off. Is it possible our donor lied on his profile to hide his father’s career, to make him LESS successful and LESS educated? I would think not. Bummer.

I know that many people have expressed uneasiness with doing this, with searching out the donor and with even caring. Initially I searched because it was a challenge and it was fun. I was so happy to find an adult picture and info to share with Sadie since I know, despite the fact that he is ID release, she may never have more than a name. I was also happy to find a strong and healthy looking person. As much as this statement excludes D in the process, I did use this person to make a baby. I’m glad he wasn’t creepy looking, or (shame on me) a loser. I was proud that I’d offered her some good genes since some of mine leave a lot to be desired! I guess I’m back to square one and perhaps over my search. I’ve tried digging up dirt on the others on my list of candidates but it’s not easy. I’ve decided to keep the info and picture anyway because he could still be the right guy. Sadie will know the truth if she wants to, at 18. Maybe I’ll have a little extra info for her if I was right.

On the topic of our donor, I met a family last weekend that has 2 little boys from the Fair.fax donor who sold out and ultimately forced us to switch to Xy.tex. It was weird. We weren’t meeting Sadie’s half-sibs, we were meeting half-sibs for the child we wanted so badly but didn’t have, the child from my chemical pregnancy, our first BFP. That’s the crazy thing about using a donor (or 4). Our child would have been very different if try #1-#6 had worked. Would we have had one of these bright blonde children? Maybe a boy? Wow. Weird. Wow.

Now if only we could find a real half-sib. Someone obsessive has to be out there googling our donor number. I’m RIGHT THERE and waiting to be easily contacted.


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Random thought

Since having Sadie I've continued to feel those cute little flutters that people often compare to gas bubbles, a baby inside of me. At first I called them phantom kicks but now I don't know what's going on. What the heck is a gas bubble (rhetorical question) and why had I never felt one before? Did they sew me up wrong? When I have #2 are they going to find my intestine tied like a pretzel?

Just wondering...



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Foto Friday

This photo represents our need to go clothes shopping because Sadie has outgrown pretty much everything!

Outfit details (incase you are jealous):
Old Navy Spiderman T-shirt
Baby legs (on arms), Black skulls
Gymboree Elephant leggings

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